Embracing change

I have been accused of not doing well with change. And that is true with many things in my life..I admit it! I hate that I can't remember every detail of my babies...the smell of their breath and toes, the sound of their little voices, their laugh, their questions...it is too far back. But there are some things that will forever be engraved in my heart and mind...the love that can fill your heart and break it all at the same time, the sound of legos as my two little blonde headed boys played on the living room rug for hours, the theme song of Super Mario playing over and over, watching the boys play with their Tonka trucks in a huge pile of dirt that Richard had brought in for them each summer..brushing off their filthy bottoms and putting them in the tub which always left a nice ring, hearing Amy scream..and finding her in her closet playing with her Barbie dolls with more drama than I ever thought a 4 year old could have, watching her dance around the house all dressed in her princess dress and white gloves.  These are just a few of the things I hold on to, things that fill my heart with such joy and sadness at the same time.

But change is part of life, that is a fact that will never change. We can either embrace it and enjoy all the new chapters of life, or hold to the things that we can never bring back. God planned these seasons for us...he knew what he was doing. He knew that we would be sappy and cry as we looked at old pictures of years gone by, but he also gives us the present and the future to add joy constantly to our lives. I for one don't want to be stuck in the past..I am looking forward to all the new memories ahead of me.

Trust me when I tell you that having those little curly blonde/red heads grow into adults is SWEET! I not only love them, I really really like them! They are amazing people that we have so much fun with...they are our friends!!